Moving is hard. I’ve talked to people lately who say that the prospect of picking up and just going somewhere new — solo — is exciting to them. I’m not sure I believe it. Maybe I’m not that kind of a person. I hope that excitement and anticipation of new things to explore will come greet me sometime before I leave, but for the moment, I am feeling a lot of grief for what I’m leaving behind.

They say that depressed people don’t see the world more negatively than others. In fact, studies have shown that depressed people see the world more clearly and realistically than others. What does that say about the world?! I’m one of those people, and I don’t want to give up seeing the world realistically, but I spend a lot of time trying to focus on happy things and things I am grateful for so that I’m not sad all the time.

Sometimes it just overtakes you, no matter how much you wish it wouldn’t.

It’s hard going through my things. Get rid of things. I haven’t looked at that in years. I haven’t worn that in years. I don’t want to let go, but keeping things to keep them doesn’t always make sense either. Let go, let go, let go, let go.

Change is inevitable. We don’t get to stay still, and I know this. We can love what we love about now or about the past. We can keep in touch with our friends when we move. We can accept that some people will drift away, but that the ones who really matter will keep in touch. Maybe not often, but they will. We will make new friends, and find new things to do.

Growing pains. We say that for a reason. Change is hard, but necessary.

I am grateful for the new opportunity.
I am even grateful to be forced to sort through my crap.
I am grateful for the support and help of many friends.
I am grateful for the boxes.
I am grateful to have lived in this beautiful house for over 10 years.
I am grateful to have been able to make so many friends here.
I am grateful to have been able to contribute to the community here for the past 12 years.
I am looking forward to making new friends and trying new things.
I am looking forward to a lighter life after I’ve gone through so many of my things!
I will be very glad when this move is over.